UGH. WHY?!?

GAAAAH!!! so ok, I knew I had to deal with this somehow. a lot has changed. A LOT. it was ok. then miserable. back to ok. then ecstatic.... then it all went downhill. sad. sad na me. tsk. and all this is happening is because of.. nothing else..... but my... wait for it.. ASDFGHJK. thanks.